I have been so excited to hear from everyone who has read my blog. I’ve had so many good conversations about it that have led to praising the Lord! I don’t know why I’m ever surprised by His works, because He is almighty and perfect; but I’m blown away just the same. I am just amazed at how happy and confident I am when I’m in His will. It makes me want to kick myself for all the times I’ve wasted trying to do my thing, when if I would just give in, I’d be 1000 times happier with Him…as I am now.
The teacher in me wants to first apologize for all of the typos in my first post! As I read your comments this week, I went back and re-read what I’ve written so far and was so embarrassed at all of the errors! I did proof read, but I guess that entry was a little too emotional to catch errors.
With that said, I can now write about what’s happened since Wednesday. I’d posted a few entries before I shared the blog because I wasn’t quite ready to share. From the get go, though, I knew that God wanted me to make it public…it just wasn’t the right time yet. Wednesday came around and I was so excited. I knew Tuesday night that Wednesday was the day to share it with you. I wanted to let David read it first, since he didn’t even know I was writing, and then get his blessing to share it with everyone. He hopped right on board and I had it ready so I could link it on FB through my phone. I never imagined so many people would read it. I really thought only my family and a few people I talk to regularly would check it out…once, but then the comments started rolling in. People were letting me know they were thinking about me and saying prayers. Others shared their testimonies or similar stories, while others simply praised the Lord!
I have become painfully shy since I’ve been married. I think this is because when we moved, I had to make friends - which is something I’d never really had to do. I didn’t have to make friends in H’town…they were just there from the beginning. When David and I got married, he’d lived out here for a year and had already made a few friends. I was completely reliant on him since I didn’t know anyone. Since then, I’ve found it very hard to open up to people; therefore making it hard to make friends. I keep to myself and rarely tell people what’s going on in my life. I know this has earned me the impression that I’m stuck up…which is probably true to a degree, but the truth is I’m just too shy to talk to people! When God sent the blog idea to my, I tried to talk myself out of it. I felt that if I wanted people to know something, I’d tell them. More importantly though, God wants people to know and He’s allowing me to open up through blogging. I want to say, “Praise the Lord! At least He’s letting me write instead of talk,” but the blog is just opening the door to those conversations. The ones I’ve always found quite uncomfortable. Luckily, I’ve got God on my side and since it’s what He wants me to do…those conversations have not been uncomfortable at all! Instead, I’ve been excited to share with people and find out how God’s words have impacted them. Now I can say, “Praise the Lord!”
As I re-read my first few entries, I was blown away at my growth since the first one. I’ve not had a “woe is me” moment or questioned what I’m doing since I began this new journey. I keep reminding myself that God is ALL I need - If I get discouraged, or frustrated, or start to complain.
I am excited to know that I am doing exactly what He has asked of me. I have known for several months that there were pieces of my life that I needed to turn over to Him, but I didn’t want my plans to not work out. As I said in a previous post…God’s plan will always win. Once I realized this, and allowed myself to give into what I knew I had to do, I was overwhelmed with peace. In Crazy Love, Frances Chan writes about a time during seminary when his professor asked the class what, in their lives, required complete faith. FC said at that time, there wasn’t anything. He felt like if he were not a Christian, his life would be about the same. This question tugged at my heart too. Although there are some things that I give to God immediately, there were two big pieces that I couldn’t let go of. Now that I have…I praise Him! I know that He will make me happy…just because He is God. Not because of things I think He will give me. I told someone today that in the past few months, I would “act right” because if you delight yourself in the Lord, He will give you the desires of your heart. ~ Psalm 37:4 Well, you can’t “act right” to get what you want. God pointed me to another piece of scripture that helped me see that my way of thinking was not exactly what He was looking for: Proverbs 3:5-6 ~ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. “In all your ways, submit to Him…” Done. Praise God!
My prayer for you is that you will Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him. ~Proverbs 3:5-6
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